Time to Lay it Down

Few really truly know me. Even less actually ‘get’ me.  And by getting me, I mean know the true essence of who I am, what I stand for, what I believe in…what makes me tick…on the soul level.

Perhaps I have not let many in to be able to fully reveal myself. I’m aware that I do this as a defense mechanism for fear of being judged, not accepted or approved of. I’ve struggled with this my entire life.

Throughout my life I’ve been a people pleaser; always seeking to make others happy so they are not disappointed in me.  This behavior occurred in my relationships ranging from family to friends to my ‘romantic’ relationships. I’ve recognized this pattern of behavior within myself a few years ago.  I’m aware of it, yet at times it still rears it’s ugly head to challenge me to break the pattern. I no longer want to care what others think of my choices, decisions, my way of thinking, my spiritual beliefs. I no longer want to care what others think of me.  I am no longer seeking approval for the choices and decisions I make for myself.  I always respect the opinions of others, however my feeling is if someone does not agree with something I say, do or feel, that is on them, that is not on me.  It is no longer a burden of responsibility that I am willing to carry as it has gotten too heavy to bear and I am laying it down.

I am a deeply sensitive being. Like a badge of honor, I wear my emotions on my sleeve for the world to see.  I not only feel what I feel, most times, I also feel what you feel. My heart overflows with a sense of responsibility to care for many; to be the Light that shines in your moment of darkness.  Yet, at times, I too seek to find that Light in my moments of darkness.

Behind the closed doors in the sacred sanctuary of my apartment I cry with you, I smile with you, I hurt with you and I laugh with you. Tears are shed…a release. Releasing the emotions that I feel, is such a good, healthy thing to do because I simply don’t want them to get rooted within me. Many do not understand this and many never will.

I am a positive, kind person who does my best to see the good in people and situations.  Having a positive perspective on life can be difficult at times as I am human, just like you.  I have my own dragons to slay and some just don’t understand this. I share my outlooks with others in hopes it will help them for a moment in their day and perhaps they will, in turn, pay it forward.  It only has to begin with one person.  My perspective is, if I help one person, animal, etc, it will have a ripple effect and the gesture is much grander in the big picture then in the actual moment.

The journey I have been on since I moved to North Carolina has not been easy.  It has been an introspective map leading me to have met the most beautiful people, experience amazing moments, and it has allowed me to find out who I am and what I want from my life. Now at forty-four years young, I am beginning to understand who I really am and what my soul’s purpose is.

As I move forward, one foot in front of the other, I grow into the human that I was meant to become in this lifetime. Not everyone will understand and that is okay.  At times, I don’t even understand and in those moments I pause, take a deep breath, ask for Guidance, trust and continue with my journey.

 

With Love, the World is Yours

With love, the world is yours. Present yourself with an open heart and an open mind. Do not be afraid of showing the world who you really are. For you are a Divine Being of love and light. You are here to help the planet, as we all are. Cast your blessings and prayers each and every day to the world and help lift the vibration of the planet. Say it to every human, every plant, every insect and every animal.  Raise the frequency of YOU and therefore the world’s frequency will rise. Do not think you are just one person for one person can make a difference and collectively alter the vibration.

 

Many of us wish to help and we do, however do not forget to ask us to help as well.  We do not intervene unless we are asked. In a world of limitless possibilities, be the one always moving forward on your path. Go forth with conviction and purpose as you are so loved.

Today’s Goddess Message

Cerridwen: Death and Rebirth

 

I give you life

I give you death

it is all one

You travel the spiral path

the eternal path

that is existence

ever becoming

ever growing

ever changing

Nothing dies that is not reborn

nothing is born that does not die

When you come to me

I welcome you home

then I take you into my womb

my cauldron of transformation

where you are stirred and sifted

blended and boiled

melted and mashed

reconstituted then recycled

You always come back to me

you always go forth renewed

Death and Rebirth are but points of transition

along the Eternal Path

Meaning of this card:

Cerridwen’s appearance in your life heralds a time of death and rebirth. Something is dying and needs to be let go of, so something new can be born. We know the earth’s dance of death and rebirth as the seasons. Matter cannot be created or destroyed, but undergoes transformation.  So do we. To live fully and in wholeness we need to accept life in all that it is, which includes death and rebirth. Let go of what does not serve you and your wholeness.

Perhaps you have reached the end of a cycle, a relationship, a job, and you fear letting it go.  Or feel that you are dying, when only a piece of you needs to give way to the new. Perhaps the idea that there is death and only death is too painful for you to accept. Living in a patriarchal culture has deprived most of us of the Goddess’s way of death and rebirth. Wholeness is achieved when we can say yes and do our dance of death and rebirth. Cerridwen says you will always get back what you give to me. It will be changed, it will be transformed, but you will get it back.

I Am Enough, I Am Always Enough.

There is a light that shines in the center of your Being that needs to be shining brighter. Open your heart center to new, loving experiences and new loving people. Watch who you so freely shine your heart light for not everyone is as open as you. They will take a piece of your light.  Have discernment for who you bring into your precious world, space and hearts.

You are a beacon of light for the world.  Connect your light with the light of the world and together darkness will be uprooted. Where there is darkness there can always be light.

Take heed of others and follow your guidance system. Love is the only way. Love is the only way.  Forgive and love.

Desire peace of mind, peace of heart and peace of the world.

Don’t look to the mirror for your reflection as your true reflection shines through your heart. That is who you really are. Share your reflection with the world.

And so it is.

Today’s Goddess Message

I decided it would be fun to ask for a general message for the those reading this post from The Goddess Oracle deck by Amy Sophia Marashinsky and Illustrated by Hrana Janto.

Each and every one of us, whether born male or female in this lifetime possess BOTH male and female energy.  The ying and the yang.  So yes, if you’re male, you do possess energies of the Divine Feminine/Goddess.

Today’s card is Goddess Vila: Shape-Shifting.

I dance from form to form

I shift from shape to shape

ever changing

ever expanding

ever becoming

I am flexibility

for by changing my form

I freely flow with all that comes my way

I am consciousness

for by shifting my shape

I gain an expanded awareness of what it is to Be

I waltz a whirlwind

tango a tree

salsa a swan

or just plain fox-trot

My dance is an affinity with All

for I am able to become All in order to know All

Becoming All dissolves form

Knowing All creates Oneness

The illusion is that you have a separate shape.

Continue below for meaning of the card…

Meaning:

Vila has come dancing into your life in her many forms to teach you to nourish wholeness by learning to shape-shift. Have you been too long in one form? Are you feeling still and stagnant, losing flexibility in your way of thinking and being? O perhaps you feel that the human is the most important being in creation – that the rocks, tress, animals, earth, etc, are lesser forms.  It is time to expand your awareness, to enhance your flexibility by gaining the perspective of other forms. Vila says the way to wholeness lies in experiencing the whole of creation.